I feel like I have a somewhat split personality – not the kind where I do not know what I am doing, nothing dangerous like that.
However, I experienced a side of me where I felt very powerful and demanding – a persona where I am so sure of myself that I will not respect bull-crap from people or re-hear words of knowledge that is already innate to me.
This energy that I only felt a handful of times made me feel unforgiving, brutal, deadly and powerful – my INTJ persona.
I could see my face in my mind and I looked lethal.
When this INTJ persona came out at first…it was uncalled for, nothing have made me feel this way, there was no outside influence. I thought to myself that this personality was scary…yet satisfying. I would feel so in control of what I believe in and of myself as a person.
This INTJ personality overwhelmed me when I was drawing too; my resulting picture was a girl licking a sword in a witchcraft circle…
Also, when I was applying for a job, I had to fill out those questionnaires which asks, “are you good at working in a team”, “are you good at interacting with people” etc etc. Now I know that you can manipulate these questions and answer them accordingly regarding what employers want to see – but I like to stay true to myself…so much so that my INTJ persona came out. As I was typing in my answers, I felt indestructible and deadly.
Needless to say, I was not picked for interview ¬_¬
If is was the recruiter, I would not pick me either, I sounded so unfriendly on paper. However, I really enjoy this side of me and I hope it makes more of an appearance.
Hope you enjoyed another random diary entry – Geomeun Goyangi